Dear Beloved Reader,
I hope today is a wonderful day for you.
I am supposed to be making my model for my day job but I feel like doing content creation. Tried taking some pictures of my work station and boy am I terrible at this. Let’s try to break down why my brain is in sabotage mode – why does it not “feel like” making a model, the model that fills up my bank account and helps me fulfil all of my shopping whims. Something so important and my brain just “doesn’t feel like doing it”. Bizarre, isn’t it?
One possible reason could be that I haven’t eaten anything yet. I’ve just had a cuppa coffee. Lavvazza crema e dolce. My so far favourite coffee. I have a sausage and iceberg lettuce sandwich right in front me of, I’ve had it in front of me for an hour now and I haven’t touched it. I’m not eating it. There is a discrepancy between what I want to do and what I actually do. If I could just learn the root cause of this discrepancy, the world would be mine and everything in it. In simpler words, I’d have more control over my life. Rather than life controlling me.
Anyways, let’s get back to why I’m not up for modelling. Let’s tackle one problem at a time. Another reason could be that I slept late yesterday. Or that I ate rice noodles yesterday and biryani the day before. Over the years, I have noticed that rice brings an unusual amount of lethargy to me. So I have significantly cut down on rice. Sometimes though, I give in to a scrumptious plate of biryani or pulao or matar pulao (fried rice and peas).
Yesterday, I ordered some noodles and later the chef told me “They are rice noodles ma’am, they don’t taste much good cold, you should eat them quickly”.
In that moment, I knew, I fucked up. Rice two days in a row. Shit.
I mean, I could be vehemently wrong about this. Correct me in the comments if you know something along these lines. But until I find more enlightenment on this, I’m gonna assume that I don’t feel like making models today because I consumed rice two days in a row. I know it sounds a bit crazy but as they say in tech, if it works, don’t mess with it. Not eating rice in any form has been working for me and I am going to boycott rice as much as I can. I honestly wonder if brown rice is safe for me to consume. I’ve been meaning to try it but I already have so much to do, so this one is way down on my priority list.
I also wonder if it is a genetic thing. My nani (who is hands down the most deeply intelligent woman I know) says rice doesn’t suit her, it does funny things to her stomach, sometimes it causes pain, and sometimes it makes her throw up. She tries to avoid it too till a biryani comes along to tempt her. This brings me to another blog idea – do some digging on the correlation of rice with lethargy, and find out if there is some research on it.
We could also put the blame on sleeping late. I only slept late by around 30 minutes. See, last week was mega-productive for me. I didn’t face lethargy or lack of motivation at all last week. I didn’t consume rice last week and I did sleep late on some days last week. Based solely on this observation, I’m gonna say sleeping late has a smaller contribution to today’s productivity hindrance.
So, in conclusion, I’m gonna blame rice and also sleeping a little too late yesterday for me not feeling like doing my day job that feeds my shopping whims. I’ll try eating my sandwich now and see if it helps.
Till then, wish me luck. And I wish you luck with whatever passion or day job you are pursuing.
Rice is clearly the devil's workshop...
Lavvazza crema e dolce. My so far favourite coffee. - You are speaking my language Husun. Also, I eat rice most days so I guess I've been f**king up for awhile now - hah.